“I had a challenging childhood marked by abandonment issues from my biological parents. My adoptive father also left when I was only three years old. These traumas shaped me into a person who lived life behind many layers of masks, struggling to trust and allow intimate relationships. Despite my financial success and diligent parenting, there remained an invisible barrier within me, preventing me from fully loving and receiving love. I became a “functional” wife, mother, and participant in other relationships. After 17 years of marriage, my husband proposed a divorce in 2015, which was a traumatic experience for me. I felt constantly tested by the universe, despite fulfilling my roles as a daughter, wife, mother, friend, and citizen.

Devastated, I struggled to regain financial stability and making several bad decisions. I contemplated suicide, feeling overwhelmed but concealed my pain, suffering in silence. I had been on a personal development and spiritual discovery journey since 2003 and built a career in the field. However, during this difficult period, I not only failed to help myself but also doubted the value of all the knowledge and resources I had accumulated.

My daughter was diagnosed with anorexia at 13. Initially, I thought it was just a teenage phase, but the severity of the situation soon became apparent. My daughter engaged in self-harm, pushed me away, and even ran away from home once, leading to a police report. She was hospitalized four times, teetering on the brink of death.

I felt lost, filled with pain and self-blame, feeling like a terrible mother. Despite my efforts to help others, I couldn’t help my own daughter. Both my daughter and I contemplated suicide, mirroring each other’s internal struggles. The intensity of our mother-daughter experience during that time was indescribable.

While rescuing my daughter and managing hospital visits, I unintentionally neglected my son, who was 14 at the time, adding to my guilt. I lost my full-time job after just four months, serving as a wake-up call.

Internally, I knew that if I didn’t heal my traumas, my daughter couldn’t fully recover. So, I asked my ex-husband for help in caring for my daughter, giving me the space to heal while looking after my son. Although this decision was my last resort, it was not without great sadness. I cried for three days after my daughter left.

From that point onward, I focused entirely on myself. I practiced self-care and self-love, engaged in extensive inner work and detoxification, and sought help from spiritual friends. It took approximately one year, but I finally began to feel grounded, peaceful, and open to new possibilities. I am grateful that my ex-husband loves our children, even though he may not love me. My daughter, with the support of her stepmother, was well cared for while I had the opportunity to heal myself. My inner transformation had an incredible impact.

My daughter made a complete recovery from her eating disorder roughly a year after I began addressing my traumas. It was as if my healing unlocked her own path to wellness. She has also become financially independent and a strong, confident young woman who knows exactly what she wants in life. And our relationship has grown much more intimate and loving.”